Self-improvement, self-induced guilt, and what really matters
I suck at self-improvement. I can't stick to things when the only reason I do them is to ' be better '. Be a better blogger and post more often? Exercise daily? Roll on Janathon ! Except, I didn't roll with it for long. Just sitting around being good enough today. Clearly, commitment isn't a problem. There are lots of commitments in my life which I regularly keep: I'm holding down a job, walking the dog daily, keeping my home clean. Loving my husband, of course. Eating vegan. I do none of these things just for myself, though: and that is the difference. After thinking long and hard about why I failed at Janathon - and I will point out that the exercise was mostly a daily thing and I've even started running a bit! It's the blogging that didn't work out because I didn't have enough to say... - and the answer is, I did that to ' be better '. A drive to be better [thinner, fitter, ...] = self-induced guilt. This drive comes f